My girls

Lily: She was crying BIG crocodile tears as the garbage truck was picking up our garbage. She thought it was going to take our garbage can and not bring it back. Later on, "I hope the garbage can doesn't take our truck." Took all I had not to laugh!

Graceanne: She is SO, SO very close to crawling. In fact, it is making it more difficult for her to go down for her naps. It took her 40 minutes to fall asleep and then only slept for 25 mins. I kept checking on her and found her in too many different positions to count. At one point, she was playing with the slats on her crib. Less than two minutes later, she had her legs stuck in the slats and coundn't get turned around.

I am thankful that I don't have to leave my girls in the care of someone else everyday. I realize that there are many capable people, but I am thanking God in advance for providing for our every need until Steve is done with school. I am sure he will continue to provide after that as well. : )

God give me the peace, wisdom, and dare I ask for it (patience) to mother these beautiful blessings. 116 days until Steve graduates.

The Battle is His

I am weary. I am tired. I don't know how to do my life anymore. I have made a point to stay off the computer more lately. I tend to get depressed when I feel like I am wasting my time. I woke up this morning about 4. Not been sleeping well. Thought it was better, but not really.

Graceanne is discombobulated (is that even a word?). Lily is more defiant than ever. Is their behavior a result of mine? No - I don't believe it is. Satan let up on us for awhile, but I believe his is back - not that he ever really went away. Kept at bay by your prayers?

Steve is about to start what will probably be the worst month of his entire program. I don't know if the sleeplessness is from the Zoloft or the uncontrolled anxiety. It has been nearly two weeks.

I asked God if I could check my email and felt like he said it was okay. I then checked a couple of blogs. "The Battle is His." Two in particular were helpful. I am really indecisive. I need clarity - who doesn't? Just pray - please.

I sat down to just type simply - PRAY! But . . . these words came out.