The Yuckies

Well, the computer has been back for 5 days and I am no closer to being caught up on blogging. Lily and I both have felt pretty "yucky" this week. In fact, most of it is a blur. Steve has been gone for 52 hours and is due home in 5 more. I am soooo thankful that he hasn't be gone longer.

Thanks Mom and Dad for helping with Lily last night! I stayed with them overnight. Lily woke up at 12:ish and didn't go back to sleep until 5 this morning. Let's just say that it was not one of my finest moments as a mom. Mom and Dad made me go to bed at 3 and they stayed up with her. Lily and Grandpa R have a special relationship.

I felt like an utter failure at the time. To be frank and honest . . . I started comparing myself to other moms (especially those with more than one child). I felt awful for not being able to take care of and meet the needs of one let alone more.

The rest of the day went remarkably well for this being the 2nd night in less than a week for getting 3-4 hours of sleep. She had touble going to sleep for her nap and "night, night." She is currently asleep in our bed with my hopes of making a successful transfer to her crib in a little bit.

We went to a birthday party this afternoon for an adult friend and Lily played outside for nearly 2 hours. We then went grocery shopping. Thank you God for sending a peaceful spirit over Lily during that time. As we were pulling out of Wal-Mart, I got what I call a hug from my Lord and Savior! Phillips, Craig, and Dean's "Mercy Came Running" was playing. Most of the song was over. This is exactly what I heard when I turned on the radio:

Past all my failures to the point of my need
When the sin that I carried
Was all I could see
And when I could not reach mercy
Mercy came running to me

Sometimes I still feel so far
So far from where I really should be
He gently calls to my heart
Just to remind me

Past all my failures to the point of my need
When the sin that I carried
Was all I could see
And when I could not reach mercy
Mercy came running to me

Music has ALWAYS been very emotional and spiritual for me. That's why I usually only listen to Christian music. Not because the other is necessarily evil, but I want to build my spirit up. Thank you Lord for your mercy. I know I need it now!

This has turned out way longer than I ever intended! If you are reading this tonight, please pray for rest for all of us in the Woof house. I know Lily and I will not be getting any better unless we get rest. Steve will be getting home around 2 am.