Feedings

Well, I have to be honest here. I have not been feeding myself spiritually like I should since Graceanne was born. I am trying, but not hard enough. I was feeding Graceanne a few days ago and I had the following thoughts:

Graceanne was not cooperating during a feeding. She was refusing most of her bottle. I was frustrated, because I knew she needed it to grow. My heart ached, because I knew Graceanne wasn't eating and I couldn't make her.

That little voice in my head said, "That is just like when I try to feed you, so you can grow." God can't force me to "eat," so that I can grow. His heart must ache the same (or more) as mine. I need to open my eyes more to seeing God in the EVERYDAY moments - like feeding my baby girl!

I don't know where to go from here with this. Except to ask God's help in continuing to strive to MAKE time for him. Asking him not to give up on me in the process!

His mercies are new EVERY morning!